Gratitude Journal #4

Today.....I am grateful for my insurance coverage and the job that provides it for me.

I am grateful for the joy that Q has brought to my life.

I am grateful that it is not raining.

I am grateful for my ability to analyze, organize and procrastinate.

I am grateful that today was warm enough that I could wear a skirt.

I am grateful that we have the means and ability to do IVF.

I am grateful for the information I have gained from the book I'm reading.

I am grateful for the practice of yoga and the calm and peace it has brought into my life.

Status Report

So went in today for monitoring appointment and we are all good to trigger tonight!! I'm so glad I called and had the appointment moved from tomorrow to today, I had a +OPK yesterday and today and there were 3 good follies in there, 1 on the right (which I was surprised because I've been feeling everything on the left) and 2 on the left. The cyst that was on the right side at baseline is almost completely gone. Lining was 8mm. So we will trigger tonight, do the deed and IUI #2 is scheduled for Friday morning 9am.

Please keep all fingers and toes and anything else crossed. RE and nurse were very positive and optimistic, which makes me very positive and hopeful. And plus like I said before this weekend is my birthday and my 2WW will end on Valentine's day, so this has got to be our month right? Everything seems to be aligned.

Today I am grateful that my body is back on track and that we have 3 targets to hit for this IUI.

I am grateful for my ability to listen to my body and to have the drive to do what I think is right for my body.

I am grateful for my body's ability to re-set itself.

Gratitude Journal #3

Today....I am grateful for heated seats and 4 wheel drive in my vehicle.

I am grateful for the time spent playing with Q over the weekend in the snow.

I am grateful for my job. It helps to pay the bills and allows us to give Q what he needs.

I am grateful that my body seems to be back on track this cycle.

I am grateful that I get to karate tonight with Q and witness the pure joy he has for kicking and hitting things.

I am grateful that I had $3 in my wallet to buy a chia tea this morning.

I am grateful for winter and even these unbelievable cold temperatures because it make me appreciate spring more.

I am grateful for my parents who are willing to come this weekend so that IG can go with me to the IUI appointment.

I am grateful that in a few days I will celebrate another year of life that I've gotten to spend with the ones I love.

Gratitude Journal #2

Today I am grateful for the 75mins of yoga this morning that helped to quiet my mind.

I am grateful for the lesson in yoga that infinite patience results in immediate gratification (it's amazing how perfect it fits my situation).

I am grateful that after two days of stomach pain my belly finally feels better.

I am grateful for a full nights sleep last night.

I am grateful for the 15mins of snuggles that I had with Q this morning in bed before the day started.

I am grateful that Q's school offers a parent's night out so that IG and I can go see a movie tonight.

I am grateful for my dogs, who are always there to stick their heads in my lap even when I don't want it.

Gratitude Journal

I was a huge Oprah fan or rather I still am a huge Oprah fan, but I was a religious watcher of the Oprah Winfrey show.  I used to DVR it and when I was on maternity leave and at home alone for 12 hours a day with newborn, it always felt like my adult hour. She was the only daytime talk show I watched regularly. Anyways a few years back Oprah talked about keeping a gratitude journal and writing in it everyday the things you are grateful for. I can't remember the deeper lesson behind the gratitude journal, I mean obviously it helps you to focus on the things that are good right now in your life, but I think there was some deeper lesson behind it all.

Anyways, lately I find myself so consumed by my journey with SIF that I feel like I can't think of anything else. I think I only have one week a month where I don't feel totally consumed by this and that's usually my fertile week where I've moved out of feeling disappointed and sad that another cycle has ended with AF and into feeling hopeful that maybe something will finally work. But then I move into the 2WW and I'm consumed all over again. I have a hard time concentrating at work and a lot of the time just feel like I'm gong through the motions in the evenings with Q. And then I feel so guilty for not cherishing what I have. 

So I was thinking about the things I am grateful for and thought maybe some form of a gratitude journal would help take my mind out of the dark place IF takes it for the majority of my month. 

I am grateful for the beautiful, funny, caring, loving son that I already have. 

I am grateful for a body that woke up and functioned to the best of it's ability today. 

I am grateful for a husband that will do pick up and dinner tonight so that I can go to a spin class. 

I am grateful that we have the insurance coverage and financial stability to seek treatment. 

I am grateful that I sit in an office with windows.

I am grateful that I have music to help get me through the day.